January usually goes by fast. I mean, it’s already gone! A lot of times, I’ve seen February 1^st as a form of New Year’s. Come the 1^st of January, we push to have our New Year’s resolutions go into effect. A lot of people break them quickly after, which is why a lot don’t bother making them. The way I see it, sometimes, we [can] have January 1^st & January to iron out the kinks & then things go, or can, into play come February 1^st. That doesn’t mean we still shouldn’t try come January 1^st. I see February 1^st as a booster, if things go south. I did make some New Year’s resolutions, & for the most part I’ve stuck with them. By that I mean I’m still working on them. Have I lapsed? Not that I can think of to the point where I’m like, shit! I fucked up. I have my resolutions I work on daily & my longer-term ones that I know won’t happen overnight, but I’m still focused & driven. This was a special February 1^st, because it was also Chinese New Year’s, year of the tiger! I was born during a year of the tiger.

I’ve been back in Los Angeles for two years now. Wow! I’m still hanging onto the dream/ goal/ idea of returning to China to teach, but sometimes I can’t help but feel that as I get older the more likely it’s not going to happen. It’s not necessarily because of age, per se. I believe I’m still eligible for a mid-life crisis. I can still be like, fuck this! I’m out! Screw everything! I’m not that old! Plus, I still look youthful. 😉 It’s because I need to stay put somewhere if I want to get ahead of the game & accomplish certain things I want à buy real estate property in the great state of California. I haven’t given up on that dream/ goal yet. It’s just another thing on the backburner right now. It’s probably best its there, because right now California’s housing market is tooooo out of control. Everyone on this planet knows it’s expensive to live here. My advantage: it’s not too obscene to me because I’m from here. & with inflation, I’m thisclose to saying, take me now! There’s just no winning! & all certain people want to do is cry how life isn’t fair & yadayadayada. SAVE IT! BUT! I must be strong, strong-willed, determined, continue with my goals, keep my mindset focused, be confident, courageous, energetic & on occasion rebellious 😉, like the tiger, a beautiful white tiger. On the other hand though, I should still push for that teaching job in China because then I can bank my money because usually foreign teachers get “free rent.” It’s included in their salary. I’m likely to have less expenses over there. Decisions, decisions. Strategize! There’s more than one way to skin a cat. No pun intended. Time! Everything takes time! Plus, we’re still in this fucking pandemic, so it’s not all that simple, especially going there, to China, mainland China. I’m not only restricted to China, but I liked living there & after I’m done I can just country hop.

Speaking of the last 2 years, I need to rid myself of whatever “funk” this pandemic has put in me. Am I broken? No. Seeking sympathy? No. But in some way or another, the pandemic has affected each & every one of us. & in a weird way also, it has helped us. I am over the pandemic. I am over hearing the conspiracies. I am over hearing people contest vaccinations. Um, didn’t you get them as a child? & if you didn’t? You should’ve because don’t you hate being sick all the time? Hahaha. People want to say, it’s just another way for the government to control us & it’s all about money. Um, newsflash! They already know everything you’re doing! All those stupid posts you do, swiping your debit/ credit card, because you don’t like carrying cash because you’ll spend it –stupidest saying ever, one of them. & you want to swipe, not left or right, for points to earn rewards. Hello! Do you not see the picture? They listen to your phone calls, Bluetooth. Can read your texts, hack into your cameras, clouds all in a matter of a few clicks. There are street cameras everywhere, even on your front porch, courtesy of you. Every time your passport is swiped, because you want to escape & go on holiday. & you still want to say, the government is trying to control us. You wanted that stimulus money though! You’re the idiot falling for their schemes! But you have all the privacy in the world & you’re 100% free. & no one knows your dark little secrets, huh? Mobile devices, navigations, thumb prints & face detection, cookies. Not the kind to snack on either, heffa. Ordering groceries online! It’s convenient… Yeah, even more convenient for them! I can seriously go on & you give it to them unknowingly. Seems like the only privacy we can get IS wearing a mask in public! I could give you some tips & tricks to evade them, but a magician should never reveal his secrets. 😉 Anyhow, enough of that. I am over not seeing people wearing their masks when they should. Are you that hardheaded? Wait! No need to answer that. I am over having events cancelled. I am over hearing businesses and companies say they can’t function fully because of the pandemic. I am over hearing hotels saying there’s no early or late check-in or outs or they can’t provide all the amenities they should, yet they still want to charge you their inflated prices. & everything has a fucking fee! OMFGG! I’m over the food shortage & supply chain issues. I’m over the stock market tanking. That’s really nothing new, but whatever. Need I go on? I hope corporate America has realized, though they probably haven’t, from this that things needs to be in-house & not outsourced to some foreign country. I get it, it’s cheaper, but look at the ricochet effects of it all. Anyway, thank you for letting me share on that, that was not my intent. Fuck the water break, give me a champeezy break!

Back to February 1^st. The more exciting thing about this past one was it was also a Lunar New Year & on that new year, there was a new moon. Timing. Alignment. Exciting. Magical, maybe? Aside from all that is going on, or isn’t, life still goes on & we must make the best of things. Is it always easy? No. Maybe we all need to be more tiger-ish. Don’t be some lame little pussycat either. With that said, go get some Chinese food. Screw the MSG. 😉 If cutting carbs is on your resolution list, & if you haven’t broke it already, there are alternatives! Or, just break it! LOL. Just make sure you get a fortune cookie. Don’t underestimate them. I’m not sure about ending them “in bed” though. This could be a great year. I’m hoping it is. Remember: it’s what you make it. I have a feeling it’ll be a good one. Namaste.