When I think about how much I’ve grown over the year & how much has changed, I then stop & really think, Oh shit! This December doesn’t just close the year; this December closes the decade! I then go deeper into my thoughts & think about how much has changed & how I’ve grown over the last decade. My God! I’m definitely not the same person. All for the right reasons! 😊 I’m all for being nostalgic, but I’m not going to sit here & unpack everything.

This has been a CRAZY year. Crazy in a good way. Lots of growth. I reread some of my previous December/ closing of the year posts, & I’ve shared before that the previous year had been crazy –in a good way– & then I got to thinking, I THINK I might be doing something right!?! 😊 It could all be a lot worse! But, let’s NOT go there. I truly am fortunate & do not take it for granted at all. This year I concluded my book series, The Cubicle Diaries. I moved apartments. I got the fuck out of that CRAZY, UNHEALTHY workplace, Cliniswirl. I’ve been fortunate to do quite the travelling, of which I’m not done yet! I have something brewing for New Years, & let’s just say “New” has a lot to do with it. 😉 My year basically opened & closed in Canada. Canadians interest me, eh. I’ll admit, I’ve also been thinking about “what’s next?” & when I get to that point, I begin, somehow, planning something major. I leave it to the gods. What they want is what they want. I know what’s next & I don’t know what’s next, 😉, & I’m OK with that. I know there will be even more changes for me in 2020, GREAT CHANGES!

I got to see a whole new side of Chicago this year & meet all sorts of new people. I don’t think that would’ve been much of an option if I was still trapped in that God forsaken place, Cliniswirl. I was limited there, & I’m not for that. I was reminded & reassured: everything happens for a reason & everything will work out. Not that I ever thought otherwise; otherwise, I wouldn’t be where I’m at today with all the things I have. I feel like a lot of the people I’ve encountered have gone through their own big personal changes, too. I’m grateful for change, for it gives me the opportunity to develop. I’m not going to say this year flew by with flying colors & everything was perfect, because it wasn’t. But what I will say is, I’m grateful for each new challenge, because it builds my strength & character. I’m not an insecure person, but I’ve developed new strengths & confidence & overcame obstacles that were in my way.

What’s interesting about the last full moon, the cold moon, was that it was on 12/12 @ 12:12 A.M. EST. Also, interesting, for the Midwesterners, 😉, the cold moon was on 12.11 @ 11:12 P.M. I’m very much into numerology. It’s freaky & interesting at the same time. & this Christmas, we got a surprise in the form of a new moon. & for Chicagoans, additionally, we got warm weather basically the whole week of Christmas! Talk about rare instances! It legitimately feels hot here. I’m excited for 2020. I’ve always been fascinated with it, for some strange reason. I remember being younger & thinking, imagine when 2020 comes?!? What will it be like?!? & here we are now, awaiting its arrival in just under a week. It seemed so far away. I’m looking forward to saying, It’s 2020. It’s time we start seeing things a little clearer now. But I don’t mind a little blurred vision occasionally, if you know what I mean… 😊